Dear Jakey,

What this all comes down to is that I really just wish I could switch places with you. I hate when I get the sense that you are so uncomfortable but I don’t really have a clue at what is going on. And the unknown makes a momma worry. At least with you, it makes me worry. The no sleep thing was odd and something we really hadn’t seen to that extreme in quite sometime. But that seems to be better and if anything you are doing a lot of it now. But, don’t worry, I am not complaining – I just hoping you are catching up and re-setting your clock so we can get back to what we are used to. I am also not sure what all the fussing is about. I don’t know why you wait to start being unhappy in your cast until the afternoon when I tell Dr. Grottkau that you are doing great. Now you are clearly unhappy in some positions and even cry. Maybe you are just that much more alert and aware then you were in May so you just feel it more and can express it. That would be a good thing. But, again, I really don’t know. It could be a bad thing – your bones might not be healing right and it might hurt. There are so many variables that it is hard to know what to do. Some might think the thing to do is just call a doctor – which I do  – but it is also complicated – everything is inter-related but each doctor is in charge on one part of you so sometimes it is better to just ride it out.  Especially since it changes so frequently anyways. Life is like a pendulum with you my dear boy. We swing from good to bad and back to good a lot. I’ll take it – it could be worse, we could be stuck in bad. So focusing on the good is what we will do – like your wiggly toes and your super cute expressions and most of all your high snuggability factor.  Love you buddy but let’s swing back to good now!

Love,

Mommy