Dear Jakey,

So I dropped of the thank you train. Not sure why because I truly am thankful for a lot but I just had to take a time out. Sometimes it takes a lot out of me to remember to be thankful because even though I know it is important, necessary and helps to keep my spirits up – it is just hard to always be thankful. Sometimes I just want to be mad, feel sorry for myself, feel sorry for Ethan and Daddy and not search so hard for the positive. Not that it is always a search – i know there is so very much to be thankful for each day but I wouldn’t be me if I didn’t get stuck in my own head once in a while. But at the end of the day I really can’t be anything but thankful because you chose me to be your mom.