It is not only Ethan that is making the transition to Lake Ave and his new kindergarten life. We all have to adapt. He has made the transistion with such ease that I can’t help be proud and impressed by him. Today was a big step for us – well, more for me because I am not sure that you are as awkward as me. When I take you to pick up Ethan we have had a few of the typical – “he is so sleepy” , “i wish my kids napped like that” comments but not too much and easy to deal with. Today was our first birthday party and I feel bad because I did try to make it so you couldn’t come – I am sorry buddy, I know I talk about including you more but sometimes I want to take the easy way out. Anyways, Kate and Cait were busy so we went to Paulie’s birthday which was all new families to us. While I had a met a few people before or spoke with them on the phone it was the first time we would really engage in the “mom chitchat”. We met a bunch of nice people and I really can see becoming friendly with Paulie’s mom but I never know what to say about you or when to bring up that you are sick. She asked how old you were and was excited when I said 4 because her daughter (who was running around having a blast) is 3. She saw potential playmates while I knew that wouldn’t be the case. We got the usual sleepy comments and I know people were wondering what was up. It just seems random though to bring up because it isn’t really obvious right away. What should I do Jakey? If you were me, what would you do? It would be so much easier if you could tell me!!!
I don’t want to hurt your feelings and I don’t want to ignore you. Over time we will get through this transition too. I just hadn’t thought about how we would me making new friends too. We are so lucky to have good friends that have known you even before the seizures – Uncle Steve, Aunty Spunkie, Christy and Rob, Briana and Trish. And then so many who have gotten to know you since you were so much younger – Kelly, Sharon, Kirsten and Mike, Carolyn and Bridget . We are lucky to be surrounded by good people. I know we will be bringing more into our world – I just hope they realize how lucky they are to be included in yours!