Dear Jakey,

Daddy is upstairs showering. I am sitting here, not sure what to do. It is time to get ready for your viewing. How do I do that? I am listening to Ethan and Sarena make videos for you on Daddy’s phone. Blowing you kisses and telling them how much they love you. It is unreal to me that you are gone. I know you are going to have quite the turnout and I am honored and proud of how important you were to so many. You taught people so much. But really, at the end of the day, if I am honest about it – I am so sick of it all. I don’t want to hear about how strong you were, or how you impacted so many people – I just want you back. I just want my Jakey back. I want my baby back. Now.