tolerance

Dear Jakey, I write to you today with a very particular request. The request for tolerance. I lack it. I have for a long time but as of late it has gotten worse. I am about to pop with frustration and I know that is not right. I know people do what they can and it is...

living life

Dear Jakey, I’ve been struggling lately with happiness. I try pretty hard to be happy and in the moment but the startling realization that you are gone always pops up. And dulls the happiness. The beginning of the school year seemed particularly difficult. The...

circumstances

Dear Jakey, Yesterday we went back to church. For whatever reason/excuse, we haven’t gone all summer and truthfully probably not since May. And now that school is starting up again, I was really feeling that we needed to get it back on our priority list. So we...

Stuck

Dear Jakey, Sometimes, as time passes, I find myself really truly stuck. Stuck in this place where life goes on and you are not in it. Stuck between happiness and guilt. And really stuck in sadness. There is so much change happening and it all seems so strange to not...

20

Dear Jakey, This letter has been brewing since Tuesday. On Tuesday we went up to see Scotty & Leah at the lake. We never went up there last summer but as you know we went up a lot with you. Back then, I sat on the porch with you on my lap drinking white wine and...

all you today

Dear Jakey,You, my sweet boy, were ever-present today. The day started early with me and Ethan visiting a JHFH family. We went to pick up some things that belonged to Xavier and we spent some time with his grandmother. And before that we made our morning visit with...