firsts, seconds, etc

Dear Jakey, So Mommy is all over the place these last few days. It is all so strange. Saturday will be 10 months and it seems so long and so awful. You are so present in everything and I can’t tell if that is what making me be in such a funky mood lately. Monday...

early morning

Dear Jakey, Yesterday morning I was driving home from boot camp and in a split second I started to cry. It has been a while since that happened, where I just lost it out of nowhere. And it just struck me with such certainty that you were gone and I missed you. I...

rainy days

Dear Jakey, It is a rainy morning and there is no school today. Ethan and I are being a little lazy – watching TV and snuggling on the couch. It is moments like these where your presence is so missed. I remember the hardest part for me about having you both in...

the connection

Dear Jakey, Tonight Ethan got his green belt. He did a really great job in his first class as a green belt, taking his new form very seriously. After class, we went to the connection for our celebratory dinner. It has been a while since we have been there, given how...

Cosmic Logic

Dear Jakey, Last night I finished “Loving Frank”. What a crazy ending. 90% of the book plugs along and is entertaining and thought-provoking and then the last 10% explodes. It was intense and to a degree, hard for me to read. I can’t read or think...