impact

Dear Jakey, Your presence has been everywhere lately. Or at least I have been thinking of you all the time. It has been so cold and crisp – the bright kind of days where I tell Ethan we can see straight up to Heaven. And this wacky group of robins have been...

Nighttime snuggles

Dear Jakey, Tomorrow your brother will be 8. Doesn’t that seem so old? He was only 5 when you died. And now he is 8. Well tomorrow he is 8. He has been such an extra good boy lately. And such a snuggler. So much so that he has made me think of you a lot lately....

A new year

Dear Lovebug, 2012 has come to a close. And we are now 6 days into 2013 and I am 39. I am feeling pretty good about 39, not sure why but I am. The year ended with the usual holiday chaos but also with this overwhelming sense of things that are wrong. And I...

after the fact

Dear Jakey, Sometimes I let time pass between letters because I seem to keep waiting for the just right time and the just right letter to write. Not another sad one, not another mad one and not another overly optimistic one. And then I realize, that like with all...

Haze

Dear Jakey, These days leading up to the 8th are so incredibly emotional and so lost in some intense memories that I am pretty much in a fog. And what strikes me the most is how different it is than last year. I was so worried and anxious to get over the 1 year hump...

in my head

Dear Jakey,So I dropped of the thank you train. Not sure why because I truly am thankful for a lot but I just had to take a time out. Sometimes it takes a lot out of me to remember to be thankful because even though I know it is important, necessary and helps to keep...