Dear Jakey,I feel a little lame writing to you again because it seems as though I have only written to you when I get myself all fired up. And I really want to write to you all the time but sometimes, most times, I just don't make the time. And I guess it goes back to...

Dear Jakey,Once again, way more time has passed than I would have thought. Much more. The last letter I wrote you was on the 3 year anniversary of your passing. Sometimes I call it when you left. When I say that, most people think its weird. I guess it is weird but I...

Dear Jakey,So today has come and now it is almost over. As this day approaches it brings about so many different feelings: anticipation mixed with dread, anxiety combined with melancholy and a need to simultaneously make time slow down and speed up. We went to...

Dear Jakey, I started this letter to you on Sunday with the intentions of writing an optimistic and positive letter.  I got about 3 lines in and I quit. And tonight I erased them. It just feels entirely inauthentic to write about being thankful at this time of year....

Dear Jakey,Wow, a lot of time has passed. More time than I am comfortable with but that is the strange thing about this new life of mine. There is no real ability to slow down the passage of time. I think I depended on you for that. You helped me and us know when to...

Dear Jakey, Life doesn't get any easier without you. I keep thinking it will but it doesn't. We just got back from another trip. We went to see Sarena and spent the weekend with her in San Francisco and then we went to Las Vegas. On our very first night we landed in...

Dear Jakey, I had one of those moments yesterday when I was thinking about how much has changed when since you left us and it all feels so strange. Ethan had tkd last night and then I took the adult class after him. Ethan is getting ready to test for recommended brown...

Dear Jakey, Another little boy that I never knew but followed a little through friends of friends on facebook died. He was one of those boys that reminded me of you, and part of this whole world of kids like you that I never really knew about until after you died....

Dear Jakey, I have found myself spending lots of time in my self-imposed time outs lately. Not because of anything particular, more because I am missing you extra and finding it a little difficult to think other things really matter. And I have come to realize over...

Dear Jakey, It is that funny time of year when there are lots of good things all at the same time but for the third year in a row it continues to overwhelm me. There was the fundraiser which was amazing this year. And I love how it consumes so much of my time. And...