Dear Jakey, At the risk of being highly repetitive, I must start by telling you how much it sucks without you. I never can really tell when it will become harder or when it will seem a little better but right now I am in the middle of a very hard stretch. I haven't...

Dear Jakey, Yesterday afternoon, Ethan announced "what a great day". And he was right, but when he said that Jakey, it just about did me in. And of course I started to cry. I kept it from Ethan because I didn't want to make him sad or think he said anything wrong...

Dear Jakey, I am really not sure where this letter is going. Usually, I have a good idea of exactly I want to tell you. But the last few days I have been struggling a bit with my thoughts. Everything feels a little disconnected lately - sort of like I am on the...

Dear Jakey, Top Ten Things I Missed About You Today: 1. The way you used to look right when you fell asleep with your head on my arm. Just beautiful. And perfect. I close my eyes tight to try to picture it but it is not the same. 2. Making your meals. Bet that...

Dear Jakey, It is weird what a year can bring. This year we are in Aruba with friends. Last year we were recovering from your massive hip surgery. It was a constant thought for me on May 18th and I remembered it in two very distinct ways. One - that a year ago you had...

Dear Jakey, Daddy and I went to the chapel this morning. And I miss you so much. Last night it hit me again that you were gone and that life was just different forever. I don't understand what makes it happen so suddenly sometimes. I guess it is just the way life is...

Dear Jakey, I love you buddy. I am writing from Aruba. Our trip has been really fun so far. And the time away with friends is a good thing. It is funny though because I was wondering if I would feel you down here with us or if there would be any of my weird...

Dear Jakey, Last night we stayed in Lake George. When we got there and I went into the room, I had a total deja vu type thing. In that instant I was looking for you and I would have sworn I saw you - sitting in your red stroller, waiting for me to take you to cuddle....

Dear Jakey, I write this letter to you tonight my Jakey, with lots of thoughts in my head. I just finished reading an old letter to you. One from when you were alive. And even though it was only from November it seemed like a whole entire life time ago. And this...

Dear Jakey, Just a short note to tell you something cute that happened this morning. G-Pa called me after he left your place. He noticed how all your birthday balloons have pretty much lost their thunder. And it's true - now that we are at the one week post birthday...