Dear Jakey, Short note to you about your dad. We used to lovingly call him Papa Smurf and I guess we still do, but maybe not as often. I wanted to remind you a little about how much he loves you. I know he talks to you a lot and that is between the two of you  but...

Dear Jakey, Yesterday I was at the Columbia Pavilion. I knew I was going there and in all honesty I didn't think so much about it. I pulled in to park and I gasped. I remembered so vividly the last two years at the stroll. And it was weird to be there. And then later...

Dear Jakey, Mommy has not been sleeping well. Last night, I decided that I would change your letters up a bit. I was thinking that periodically I would start writing to you about your people. People who knew you well when you were here on Earth. It will be in no...

Dear Jakey, Getting ready for wave riders soon. I sort of am dreading it yet I had the chance to miss it today and it didn't seem right. The whole thing is so sad but I know Ethan likes it. He is so wise about all of this stuff, Jakey. And handles it so maturely. More...

Dear Jakey, I was emailing with another mom who lost her son about 10 months ago. She said that she kept thinking about how last year at this time he was still alive. I know what she means. I remember when you first got sick and we spent all that time in the hospital....

Dear Jakey, We spent a few days in the city. It was nice but hard. We were supposed to take the train but I had the times wrong and we missed it. So we drove instead. When I told Abue she said things happen for a reason. I didn't think much of it until just a bit ago....

Dear Jakey, It has been a very long time since I have written to you, since Tuesday I think. I am sorry about that. I have had so many different letters written in my head to you about so many different things. About your brother, about my red cardinal theory, about...

Dear Jakey, Life is so weird here on Earth without you. I can't get used to the idea of you gone. It seems so hard to keep plugging along without you here. It just seems wrong somehow. And while I find some peace in the thoughts that we will meet again - the sheer...

Dear Jakey, Yesterday was our big day. We did it. It was the half marathon in NYC and everything really fell nicely into place. The weather was great. The course was fun. And I just knew you were with me and we did it together. I was telling Daddy that I felt...

Dear Jakey, I sit here tonight doing some work on the couch and ended up on facebook putting up a picture from Ethan's art show tonight. Somehow I clicked on the album to look at all the mobile pictures I have uploaded and as I was flipping through them it made me...