Dear Jakey,Another kid died. And another family is enduring the hardest and most god awful thing that can happen to a family. The thing is that almost 19 months have passed and I find myself thinking about the day you died all the time. And I think about all the...

Dear Jakey, There are so many different things I want to write about. So many different letters have been written in my head lately but none have made it out of my head. Unlike when you first died, things are just much more muted. It isn't the raw emotion of early on...

Dear Jakey, Not a lot has changed since I wrote you last. Although if at all possible, I feel like I just talk to you even more. Sometimes, I feel a little crazy because you truly are my sounding board for everything - and it can't be an easy task particularly as I...

Dear Jakey, I am both sad and frustrated that I haven't written to you in ten days. I know you understand since I have been writing so many letters over and over in my head and I know you hear them. But it seems like I can't stop repeating them in my head until I get...

Dear Jakey, It has been quite a couple of weeks: your birthday, the fundraiser, Daddy's birthday, the donor luncheon and now Mother's Day which is really the last straw. I hate to say it but I look forward to getting past it all. Each thing is a positive, or at least...

Dear Jakey, I woke up this morning very very early. I refused to look at the clock because I instinctively knew what time it was. When I finally did look, it was moments past 4:35 and I knew the reason I was awake. It was 6 years ago that you came into my life - well...

Dear Jakey, It is May 1st. Your birthday is Friday. I can't wrap my head around you as a 6-year-old. It seems so old to me as your Mommy but then it seems so young because your gone. It was just a the last two weeks that I was feeling you everywhere and I hung on to...

Dear Jakey, You should see the house. It is like a JHFH storage unit right now. We have had two deliveries in the last week and three more in the coming days. And the fundraiser is less than three weeks away. And it all keeps me so busy. Today I was in Albany to pick...

Dear Jakey, I visited with Briana yesterday. And it was fun, just the way it always is. We gossip and chat and laugh and it is just easy. I can never be there without picturing you on her couch. Either sleeping or making those funny faces as Ava, Dean and your brother...

Dear Jakey,I wish I could say it was getting easier and that my breaks in writing were because I didn't need to write to you as much. But it's not true. Especially on this Easter Sunday.  I miss you so much. I miss the silly Easter outfits I would buy you and your...