Letters to Jakey

just a little late

Dear Jakey, On Valentine's Day Miss Trish left you a beautiful note and I promised you I would write it for you and I forgot. So here it is, better late than never: Dear Jakey, Well buddy, it's Valentine's Day today and our hearts are missing you very much. Love is in...

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Easy E

Dear Jakey, I don't even know what to write about lately because I am still in such a state of shock and devastation over you being gone. I can't really explain and am frankly sick of trying to make sense of it. All I know is that nothing gets easier and sometimes it...

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life and death

Dear Jakey,Again, too many days. But Daddy and I were in Jamaica ~ at the Rockhouse for a few days and I know you understand. It felt great to be back there and I know you, more than anyone, is connected to that spot. You were so there with us and around us. I made...

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State of the Union

Dear Jakey, Again, more time has passed than I like. And I sometimes think you get annoyed when I don't write regularly. Maybe annoyed is the wrong word but I feel like you are all around telling me to write. And things are happening all around me that are so wound up...

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normal

Dear Jakey, I know that life won't ever be normal again. I know and accept it. I know that we are supposed to get used to this "new normal" that you read about in books about loss and we heard all about in WaveRiders. And for the most part I get it. I get that the...

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sad thoughts

Dear Jakey, It seems that all around me, or at least in this world that I know so well, there is so much death lately. And such hardships for little fighters. And Jakey, it sort of crushes me each time but I also can't stop following the stories and the fights of...

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Snow Day

Dear Jakey,Today, March 1st, was the first snow day of the year. Ethan and I went out and built snowmen. And I realized it was really the first time I did that kind of stuff with him. Last year even though we had so much snow I didn't do much of it - I went sledding...

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crabby

Dear Jakey, I have been very crabby. No particular reason, just very irritable. I think the only thing that would make it better would be sitting on the couch with you on my lap, feeding you your ketogenic avocado and eggs and watching the housewives of somewhere....

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on a lighter note

Dear Jakey, As I was leaving your grave tonight I was laughing about all the silly names we have for you. In no particular order, here are some: Jake-a-licious Jake-a-saurus Jakey-poo Jakester peanut The Master little buddy Jake-a-roni Rock Star I am sure there are...

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Home

Dear Jakey, We are home from California. We were there for what seemed like forever. It was a very fun vacation but also very symbolic. While we have certainly traveled since you were gone there was something about this trip and all that we did that made it just seem...

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