Dear Jakey,What a day! It started terrible with the whole Ethan hospital situation. And then got infinitely better with news that all his blood work was normal. And then it ended pretty great when we went to deliver the iPad. Being that your mom is somewhat computer...

Dear Jakey, I write this to you this morning after an eventful morning. Ethan has some strange bruising on his thighs and when we took him to the doctor this morning he had to get some stat blood work. We went to the hospital and both of us felt tense driving in. I...

Dear Jakey, We got out of the car last night and it was a cold and crisp fall night. It was close to bedtime so I was rushing Ethan along and he stopped in the middle of the sidewalk and said "Good Night Jake" looking straight up. It was such a clear night and there...

Dear Jakey, Yesterday your Mom found herself in another random experience. As you know, this is nothing new but I feel like I have had a few of these days that really stand out since you left me. Yesterday I helped out a friend that I met through you in a way - she...

Dear Jakey, This whole week has me thinking about you all the time. I keep trying not to get stuck in the moment you died but instead go to all the many moments before. This time of year seems so hard, maybe the hardest of all the "firsts" and I think because it is...

Dear Jakey, I read a blog the other day by a mom who lost her daughter. She wrote about where her daughter is buried and how over the years she has gotten to know so many more kids that are buried there. She wasn't talking about Greenridge but another cemetery near by...

Dear Jakey, So I finally did it. I got my "memorial tattoo". I had always, even before you died, thought of adding your dates to my arm tattoo. For whatever reason, ten months passed and I didn't do it. Ironically enough people ask me all the time about that tattoo....

Dear Jakey, Over the last few days, I have been thinking so much about where our life is lately. Ethan, in all his craziness, is doing so well. He is happy and getting so big. Daddy is putting him to bed tonight and I was sitting with Jake Muffin and I was thinking...

Dear Jakey, We went to Saratoga Apple on Monday. It was a crazy October day where it was super sunny and warm. Ethan didn't have school and Daddy came with us. All I could think of getting ready to go and once we were there was that last times we were there as a...

Dear Jakey, It is official, today is 10 months you left me. It sucks. I am about to go pick up your brother - he is doing Hip Hop on Fridays. He is pretty cute - he has some serious moves. I can't make eye contact with him though when I sneak in to watch because he...