Dear Jakey,Saturday you are turning 7. Not sure how to make any sense of that. I was talking with Miss Briana and she can picture what you look like now. I like the way she described you - kind of like a skinnier Ethan. I think it is probably very true. You looked so...

Dear Jakey, I can't believe months have passed since I have written you. It is not for lack of wanting to, in fact I am not really sure what the issue was. I guess for a while I was so mad that this was our only way left to chat. I much prefered writing to you when...

Dear Jakey, I know how long it has been and I feel pretty guilty about it. I guess for a while it seemed a little easier not to write because even though I love being able to directly talk to you it has honestly been easier lately just not to. It's not for lack of...

Dear Jakey, I have struggled lately with how to put into words or even my own thoughts life without you. I am so practiced and versed at talking about Jake's Help From Heaven and at trying to make it not awkward when people find out our story. But at the same time it...

Dear Jakey, Your presence has been everywhere lately. Or at least I have been thinking of you all the time. It has been so cold and crisp - the bright kind of days where I tell Ethan we can see straight up to Heaven. And this wacky group of robins have been flying and...

Dear Jakey, Tomorrow your brother will be 8. Doesn't that seem so old? He was only 5 when you died. And now he is 8. Well tomorrow he is 8. He has been such an extra good boy lately. And such a snuggler. So much so that he has made me think of you a lot lately. He...

Dear Lovebug, 2012 has come to a close. And we are now 6 days into 2013 and I am 39. I am feeling pretty good about 39, not sure why but I am. The year ended with the usual holiday chaos but also with this overwhelming sense of things that are wrong. And I couldn't...

Dear Jakey, Sometimes I let time pass between letters because I seem to keep waiting for the just right time and the just right letter to write. Not another sad one, not another mad one and not another overly optimistic one. And then I realize, that like with all...

Dear Jakey, These days leading up to the 8th are so incredibly emotional and so lost in some intense memories that I am pretty much in a fog. And what strikes me the most is how different it is than last year. I was so worried and anxious to get over the 1 year hump...

Dear Jakey,So I dropped of the thank you train. Not sure why because I truly am thankful for a lot but I just had to take a time out. Sometimes it takes a lot out of me to remember to be thankful because even though I know it is important, necessary and helps to keep...