Dear Jakey, So Mommy is all over the place these last few days. It is all so strange. Saturday will be 10 months and it seems so long and so awful. You are so present in everything and I can't tell if that is what making me be in such a funky mood lately. Monday was...

Dear Jakey, Yesterday morning I was driving home from boot camp and in a split second I started to cry. It has been a while since that happened, where I just lost it out of nowhere. And it just struck me with such certainty that you were gone and I missed you. I don't...

Dear Jakey, It is a rainy morning and there is no school today. Ethan and I are being a little lazy - watching TV and snuggling on the couch. It is moments like these where your presence is so missed. I remember the hardest part for me about having you both in school...

Dear Jakey, Tonight Ethan got his green belt. He did a really great job in his first class as a green belt, taking his new form very seriously. After class, we went to the connection for our celebratory dinner. It has been a while since we have been there, given how...

Dear Jakey, Last night I finished "Loving Frank". What a crazy ending. 90% of the book plugs along and is entertaining and thought-provoking and then the last 10% explodes. It was intense and to a degree, hard for me to read. I can't read or think about death without...

Dear Jakey, It's been a busy week. Ethan had lots of TKD to get ready for tonight which was his belt test. He did good. I think he went into it feeling pretty calm which is important. And if you had anything to do with that, I appreciate it :-). The test was long this...

Dear Jakey, Ethan got his third stripe tonight so he will be able to test for green belt on Thursday. It was looking a little shaky there for a couple of weeks but he got it together. As I was watching him tonight, I was on the edge of my seat, so nervous for him. I...

Dear Jakey, Another day behind us. And another one that I am glad is behind us. Today was the 3rd Annual Saratoga Stroll for Epilepsy on top of it being September 11th. A myriad of emotions and overall exhausting. I am just glad it's all over. A day like 9.11 can't...

Dear Jakey, The last letter I wrote you was a happy one and I made a mental promise to myself to try and keep my letters to you more positive and really share with you everything that is going on. And that didn't work so well because I haven't written in over a  week....

Dear Jakey, Yesterday something happened and I really can't even remember the last time it happened! For a while I was really happy. And while I missed you tremendously, I still felt okay. We had the filming of the Saratoga Lip Dub yesterday in Congress Park. Daddy...