Dear Jakey, We had such a lovely time here in Qgunquit. A truly perfect day yesterday. We woke up to fresh snow which made Ethan's day. We saw the bird eating outside. Mommy got to go to the outlets and pick up a few things. And Ethan and Daddy played in the snow the...

Dear Jakey, We are in Ogunquit - at the Fun Zone. We have been working so very hard on foundation stuff and it is nice to be someplace where we can do that. We worked the whole ride up here and have plowed through so much more stuff this morning. We have written...

Dear Jakey, First, I have to give a big shout-out to your Auntie Spunky. She was here right after the shit hit the fan and sometime in those immediate days she gave me a poem. Now I remember appreciating it but then everything was such a blur and so weird that I don't...

Dear Jakey, I have really felt you around the last few days I think - both directly and indirectly. The mail of the last two days has brought some pretty special surprises for me - from Mindy's letter and Judy's card to yesterday's Valentine's for you! Yes, you heard...

Dear Jakey, So the coolest thing has been happening to me this morning. Kate gave you a musical puzzle for Christmas this year. Unfortunately, you were unable to enjoy it here on Earth - and I so know that it was the perfect type of toy for you and Ethan to play...

Dear Jakey, Occasionally, others write you letters. I include them here because I love having the complete collection. Today I got another in the mail from Mindy. I read it several times, cried through them all but have since felt pretty good. So I thank her for...

Happy Valentine's Day, my love bug. I keep picturing you in that silly valentine's day headband thing with bouncy hearts that I bought you last year. You were pretty damn cute. I wish you were here rocking it again. I went to spin today. It made me realize how...

Dear Jakey, A few days have passed since I have written. Mostly because it is hard. Writing to you has always helped but to be honest, nothing is really helping lately. I just keep picturing your face and then I start to cry. I miss you so much and really am in some...

Dear Jakey, What a busy, crazy few days. Not necessarily crazy busy but just busy and crazy, if that makes sense? It is almost surreal lately. It is almost like I look for you more lately than in the beginning. Acceptance is so hard. So many times a day I look for you...

Dear Jakey, Today is a sad day. I can't believe you have been gone two months - two months since I held you, snuggled you, fed you, bathed you, did anything with you. There isn't a lot to say that hasn't been said. We are all struggling. Ethan has been crying...