Dear Jakey, I sat down to write to you a bunch of times today but could never get anything out. It was strange. I usually have the opposite problem - a lot to tell you but no time to do it. Today, I had a lot of time since I was pretty much home all day. Ethan had a...

Dear Jakey, Hey buddy, Mommy misses you so very much. It has been one of those weird days where I just keep picturing you and trying to remember exactly what you felt like on my lap, or when I would put my cheek next to yours or when I would smother you with kisses. I...

Dear Jakey, Ethan had such a good birthday yesterday - and I thank you for whatever part you had in that. I think we all enjoyed it and while at times it was painfully obvious to me that you weren't there, it was all manageable yesterday. And I know Ethan told you...

Dear Jakey, What a couple of days. I spent time with more of your people - Karen came over yesterday and I had breakfast with Lori today. I feel so proud by the impact you have had and will continue to have on the people who were in your life. I am happy that I can...

Dear Jakey, First of all I can't believe I signed last night's letter - Heather - instead of Mommy. Pretty silly, huh? Don't get any ideas about it - I am still your Mommy even if you beat me to Heaven. Lots of random thoughts for you today: Your grave this morning...

Dear Jakey, At your grave this afternoon Ethan said" Jakey, Ethan is as sad as possible". That pretty much sums it up. We are all just heart-broken. At sledding today someone told me about something that the doctor who lost his wife and two kids in CT said. He said...

Dear Jakey, Well, it is a snow day here in Saratoga Springs. I keep thinking about a snow day last year when you, me and Ethan snuggled and were lazy all day. At one point, Ethan went out back to play and we watched from the kitchen window. I miss that. I am trying to...

Dear Jakey, It is funny how some days seem better than others. Better being a relative term. Today was better than the last few. I think but am not really positive that I may have had a decent dream about you - and of course, what was it about? Poop. I think I dreamt...

Dear Jakey, I just finished putting Ethan to bed. We read his dinosaur book, said our prayers and snuggled a bit. We also talked about you. He asked God to make sure you had a great day in Heaven. He told me he was also remembering when I used to bring you with me to...

Dear Jakey, You have a new angel to watch out for - her name is Christina and she was killed over the weekend in Arizona. Her dad was on the Today Show today and it was so sad. Jakey, it was like reliving December 8th all over again. The dad was trying to get to the...